Moving on and moving up...

Finally met with the 'higher' powers and soon-to-be-ex-boss couple of days ago to confirm my new job title which would be announced at the staff meeting. Not sure how i feel about it but some of them looked relieved that i will take the job but STB ex-boss looks like she was eating "ku gua". So after all those half compliments, half insults innuendos, she really had no choice in the matter whatsoever since the other two big bosses basically patted my knee and told me that i'll have their full support. Let's just say that things didn't get get very pretty at that point with STB ex-boss who soon went into a lengthy discourse on leadership maturity (or lack of) and openness, while the rest of us nodded perplexedly away.

Not that it matters now... once i am 'there', i resolve to make the job mine. There are so many things to consider when taking on the job but at least i was upfront with with them about my plans to leave next year. I do think that its important to fulfill my responsibilities and do my best before that but already, i am feeling the pressure and stress at having to do something beyond what i would normally do, and watching my own rather frequent 'careless' comments much more carefully now.

Think that people viewed the announcement of my 'advancement' in a myriad of ways. Some with trepidation. Some were honestly happy for me. Some were wary and unsure. As usual, the PPGs gave their support and some even promised not to let me 'sink' into the pits. For that i am grateful. I only hope that this will not change me much and i could walk away one day with a clear conscience and head held high, knowing that i did my best with what i was given.

Sigh.